remember when anyone would care if I cut?
me neither!
I was with the guy I like today and it was nice and he’s cute and interesting
I’m kind of confused this 8th grade girl is like asking me about smoking weed um?? and now I’m kind of paranoid because she’s like saying she wants people to smoke with and then she’s like “you want to know what’s really going on it’s kind of funny” is this like a joke idk
I don’t know how she usually types I’ve talked to her a few times but what if this is like actually someone’s mom talking to me or something oh no
ok no I want to cut really really badly and I also want to smoke
and die
not die
idk
I just feel like shit
I wish I knew why oh my god this sucks
I want to cut so fucking badly holy shit this sucks
I miss my grandma I think I cry over her at least once a day
well I feel pretty ok tonight
I feel a little gross because I ate a lot of homemade banana muffins today but they were good and I don’t really care I might just go to sleep now
I’m tired
I’m not even going to bother to post on my main blog because nobody really cares about my dumb life or anything they just like me for my hair
my dad was really mean to me today and then he just acted like it was okay after and called me back and was all nice after arguing with me and putting me down and saying to stop moping and saying to stop being depressed and that it’s stupid
whatever goodnight
my stomach wouldn’t be so horrible if I had no stretchmarks
godfatherofslander replied to your post: I need to buy weed holy shit I am going to die or…
*AHEM*
I WASN’T SURE IF YOU SAID YES FOR SURE!
I need to buy weed holy shit I am going to die
or I need cigarettes wow yeah I need cigarettes but I’m going to the city on saturday to see my dad and there’s a store right by his apartment that doesn’t ask me for an ID
I hate to spend the little money I’ll get on cigarettes but I need something to chill out
and I need to buy weed but I’ll only buy if Jon smokes with me that’s the only reason I’ll buy even though I want weed
and then I’m going to see Steve on Sunday which means I’ll be walking so I can smoke outside in the city ahh my favorite
god look at me I’m fucking repulsive
no wonder jon doesn’t like me
I miss Jesse he fucked this ugly body he must’ve found it attractive somehow
not that he was a good looking guy
